Tomorrow I depart…

I started writing this blog post while I was laying on an air mattress on the floor of my empty apartment, but am posting it two days later.

I get this deep feeling of sadness when I give my mind enough time to think about leaving my beautiful home. But I have come to accept that I can no longer afford it 😦 It wasn’t always like that, but things happen to people for the craziest reasons. So why is packing up all my stuff and leaving my home, job, friends and some family easier to do than, say, move back with mom? That is the burning question…

While I love my life here in Florida, I’m craving something more. I need some type of fulfillment that only mother earth can grant me. I’m taking this time to open up and let the world soak into me… and I need it to bathe away all the toxins of my life. See, I believed I experienced a true “quarter life crisis” recently. I had quite the turn of events happen to me within the last year, some so bad that they completely rocked my belief system to its core. Where I THOUGHT I would be now, at 26, compared to where I ACTUALLY am couldn’t be more polar opposite. I truly believed I had my entire life figured out, clean cut and planned; all for it to be totally shook up spit out and strewed across a table for all to judge.

Well, those who want to can judge this. I’m 26 and I’m doing something that many would consider as immature, “escaping my problems”, or simply having a failure to cope with the real world. Nope, I’m just a girl with the wind at her back, ready to set sail. How my stars have aligned ever so perfectly, I’ll never know, but it has allowed me to embrace a dream. Because who am I really living for to make happy? No one but myself.

Ok ok, so now the question you’ve probably been itching to ask, where exactly am I going?? Well for the first leg, I’m starting safe- for four months, I’ll be spending my time in the Northeast- an area I’m comfortable with and have dozens of contacts to keep me afloat. Spending time with family in NH and RI, friends in the Boston area and northern VT, camping and exploring the coast of Maine, and then journeying my way out to one of my favorite places on earth, Ithaca<3 I’ll be (tentatively) staying in the northeast until around September… and then slowly make the trek back to SoFla, traveling through the Virginias, Carolinas, and Georgia. From there, I’ll pick up my wonderful brunette friend, Alexa, and head west… But for now, I plan on taking it one step at a time.

I’m excited, nervous, and of course scared. I know this is a crazy, wicked, ridiculous idea, but honestly, I can’t believe I am doing it… and I can’t wait.

So if you’ve read through this whole first post, thank you for your sincere interest! Send me recommendations, suggestions, comments…what have you! And if you’d like a visit from me, well, let me know that too, and I’ll see what I can do 🙂

Peace, love and happiness y’all.